You're probably right, but it's so overwhelming. I'm only 17 and while I get that other people feel the same as I do, really I don't understand how everyone around me, including you, handle the mundane routine. It's not even the P thing that's the main issue for me, although I definetly need some flexibility and freedom in my life. I was slowly breaking down and felt very trapped and creatively stifled until I dropped out of high school last year. It eats me up, spending what feels like most of life on something I don't actually give a damn about and means nothing in the long run. Emotionally, I don't have time or energy to handle myself and I end up just clinging on by fingernails, trying to just endure it and I basically just shut down and close myself off, which is definetly a downwward spiral from a Fi dominant. Creatively, my emotional turmiol completely gets in the way of everything, and I just end up feeling frustrated and unproductive, and my Ne can't have that forever. And eventually all that buildup catches up to me and I can't even do anything I need to do, and I just keep going down on that depressive spiral until eventually I can't physically take it anymore and I start leaving school halfway through the day or earlier, when I came at all, and then one day of not coming turned into a week, and a month, and then as I emotionally heal I realize I shouldn't go back at all. That leaves me in this state of limbo I am now, and I really don't know what to do. Any advice?
KaylaC (not verified)says...
You're probably right, but it's so overwhelming. I'm only 17 and while I get that other people feel the same as I do, really I don't understand how everyone around me, including you, handle the mundane routine. It's not even the P thing that's the main issue for me, although I definetly need some flexibility and freedom in my life. I was slowly breaking down and felt very trapped and creatively stifled until I dropped out of high school last year. It eats me up, spending what feels like most of life on something I don't actually give a damn about and means nothing in the long run. Emotionally, I don't have time or energy to handle myself and I end up just clinging on by fingernails, trying to just endure it and I basically just shut down and close myself off, which is definetly a downwward spiral from a Fi dominant. Creatively, my emotional turmiol completely gets in the way of everything, and I just end up feeling frustrated and unproductive, and my Ne can't have that forever. And eventually all that buildup catches up to me and I can't even do anything I need to do, and I just keep going down on that depressive spiral until eventually I can't physically take it anymore and I start leaving school halfway through the day or earlier, when I came at all, and then one day of not coming turned into a week, and a month, and then as I emotionally heal I realize I shouldn't go back at all. That leaves me in this state of limbo I am now, and I really don't know what to do. Any advice?