Wow, people seem to be awfully sensitive about the whole agnosticism thing....
I score INFP-T, but close to INTP-T. It’s weird, because 20+ years ago I was usually scoring ISTJ/ISTP. Not sure what exactly caused such a switch.
I’m pretty much an agnostic ex-evangelical. I found Christianity late in life, in a time of crisis, and felt very passionate about it in the beginning, because I felt I had discovered a real force that was going to lead my life in the right direction, if I just devoted myself to being a servant to a higher power.
The problem is, after 5 1/2 years, I was feeling worse than ever. My mental illness and my diabetes had both gotten much worse, and I just completely gave up hope that there was any sort of power out there that actually cared at all about anything I did, and that nothing about my devotion to such a power was in any way going to bring healing from my suffering. I reached a point where I just flat wanted nothing to do with religion anymore. I was completely uninspired and bored by my participation in it, and I was extremely frustrated that I let myself believe that it was somehow going to rejuvenate me.
I’m just apathetically agnostic about it all now. Leaving religion was not some relieving moment of bliss like it is for some ex-Christian. I’m quite pissed that I didn’t get any better. Now that there is simply no meaning whatsoever for my suffering, I have to live with the very possible reality that at 44 my best years are behind me, my diabetic damage is irreversible, and that the diabetes combined with my mental illness has basically destroyed my chances of living the successful life I dreamed of 20 years ago upon finishing college.
So anyways, who cares if you’re one or the other and religious or not. For some of us, life fucking sucks, and most likely, it’s fucking pointless. And honestly not waking up one day to have to think about it even more sounds like a huge fucking relief at this point.
Mitch (not verified)says...
Wow, people seem to be awfully sensitive about the whole agnosticism thing....
I score INFP-T, but close to INTP-T. It’s weird, because 20+ years ago I was usually scoring ISTJ/ISTP. Not sure what exactly caused such a switch.
I’m pretty much an agnostic ex-evangelical. I found Christianity late in life, in a time of crisis, and felt very passionate about it in the beginning, because I felt I had discovered a real force that was going to lead my life in the right direction, if I just devoted myself to being a servant to a higher power.
The problem is, after 5 1/2 years, I was feeling worse than ever. My mental illness and my diabetes had both gotten much worse, and I just completely gave up hope that there was any sort of power out there that actually cared at all about anything I did, and that nothing about my devotion to such a power was in any way going to bring healing from my suffering. I reached a point where I just flat wanted nothing to do with religion anymore. I was completely uninspired and bored by my participation in it, and I was extremely frustrated that I let myself believe that it was somehow going to rejuvenate me.
I’m just apathetically agnostic about it all now. Leaving religion was not some relieving moment of bliss like it is for some ex-Christian. I’m quite pissed that I didn’t get any better. Now that there is simply no meaning whatsoever for my suffering, I have to live with the very possible reality that at 44 my best years are behind me, my diabetic damage is irreversible, and that the diabetes combined with my mental illness has basically destroyed my chances of living the successful life I dreamed of 20 years ago upon finishing college.
So anyways, who cares if you’re one or the other and religious or not. For some of us, life fucking sucks, and most likely, it’s fucking pointless. And honestly not waking up one day to have to think about it even more sounds like a huge fucking relief at this point.