Oh Girl…. reading my mind! I too am an over sharer…I consider it an interview and when someone is receptive to listen, it’s the biggest compliment to me if you come back and I don’t scare you away. I am a hair dresser and can not even tell you the amount of poor souls i’ve scared so badly to never sit in my chair again. I feel as if my craft is a means to lifelong therapy. I actually get paid to have people listen to me. Unfair i’m sure to lure people into my lair and unexpectantly vomit reality at its finest and most sincere and authentic self. When I scare someone away I feel so betrayed. How is it I can undress my self so unabashedly and be so rejected. The damn nerve … when really it’s on me that this poor unsuspecting client just wanted a haircut not a condensed version of raw and uncut. I was even told by my adult Child that my love is so intense that it’s uncomfortable??? WTF….. really??? Who doesn’t want that kind of unconditional love and loyalty. Ummmm I do (waving my hands)
Hahahaha i’m on my third marriage and have come to the conclusion that NO ONE will ever know me enough to love me like that. It’s been my life goal. There are maybe a handful of people who may have an inclination on “Me” through my years but I find to great disappointment… it’s a mere impossible task to know me enough to love me. if they happen to love me… they surely don’t know me. Just tonight explaining the eeneagram with a co worker m, she was so offended when i told her that i don’t believe she thinks i’m special when she says she loves me. So horrified that I wouldn’t believe her when she says “I love you”…. she went on to stomp and reiterate after 20 years “I love my girls!!”
She Said girls! I was no more special then the rest of the girls she claimed to love. Ohhhhhhhhh silly girl.. it’s okay, being misunderstood is common in human society but to misunderstand me when my authenticity is all I have … when i give you ALL of me ALL of the time…. Misunderstanding me or my intentions at anytime for any reason just burns a bridge I will never let you cross again. I believe you may be affectionate or fond of me…. but you do not know me. I’m sorry goes a really long way with me and it’s so easy to say… I can forgive so easy… it’s super hard to make me angry or offend me. But you better not misunderstand me because i’m the most clear honest and precise person you’ll ever have the pleasure of knowing. Never accuse me of something I’m not… or pretend my feelings aren’t sincere …. any 4 knows the only thing i’m sure of in my entire life is my feelings. I can articulate the polarity of them and you best be able to follow my complexities…. My poor husbands….Husband 1 or a husband 2 or even husband 3 who lets me be my most authentic self …. Not one of them knows me and has the near impossible task of having to speak a eulogy at my funeral. As a Christian and Believer I am confident the Father knows me and actually thinks i’m pretty terrific.
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Oh Girl…. reading my mind! I too am an over sharer…I consider it an interview and when someone is receptive to listen, it’s the biggest compliment to me if you come back and I don’t scare you away. I am a hair dresser and can not even tell you the amount of poor souls i’ve scared so badly to never sit in my chair again. I feel as if my craft is a means to lifelong therapy. I actually get paid to have people listen to me. Unfair i’m sure to lure people into my lair and unexpectantly vomit reality at its finest and most sincere and authentic self. When I scare someone away I feel so betrayed. How is it I can undress my self so unabashedly and be so rejected. The damn nerve … when really it’s on me that this poor unsuspecting client just wanted a haircut not a condensed version of raw and uncut. I was even told by my adult Child that my love is so intense that it’s uncomfortable??? WTF….. really??? Who doesn’t want that kind of unconditional love and loyalty. Ummmm I do (waving my hands)
Hahahaha i’m on my third marriage and have come to the conclusion that NO ONE will ever know me enough to love me like that. It’s been my life goal. There are maybe a handful of people who may have an inclination on “Me” through my years but I find to great disappointment… it’s a mere impossible task to know me enough to love me. if they happen to love me… they surely don’t know me. Just tonight explaining the eeneagram with a co worker m, she was so offended when i told her that i don’t believe she thinks i’m special when she says she loves me. So horrified that I wouldn’t believe her when she says “I love you”…. she went on to stomp and reiterate after 20 years “I love my girls!!”
She Said girls! I was no more special then the rest of the girls she claimed to love. Ohhhhhhhhh silly girl.. it’s okay, being misunderstood is common in human society but to misunderstand me when my authenticity is all I have … when i give you ALL of me ALL of the time…. Misunderstanding me or my intentions at anytime for any reason just burns a bridge I will never let you cross again. I believe you may be affectionate or fond of me…. but you do not know me. I’m sorry goes a really long way with me and it’s so easy to say… I can forgive so easy… it’s super hard to make me angry or offend me. But you better not misunderstand me because i’m the most clear honest and precise person you’ll ever have the pleasure of knowing. Never accuse me of something I’m not… or pretend my feelings aren’t sincere …. any 4 knows the only thing i’m sure of in my entire life is my feelings. I can articulate the polarity of them and you best be able to follow my complexities…. My poor husbands….Husband 1 or a husband 2 or even husband 3 who lets me be my most authentic self …. Not one of them knows me and has the near impossible task of having to speak a eulogy at my funeral. As a Christian and Believer I am confident the Father knows me and actually thinks i’m pretty terrific.