This article is me through and through. I am an ENFP-A which is becoming a -T. In my 20s I thrived. I initially studied computer science so I could travel with all the money I was earning but never worked in it. I worked in different industries in design (magazine, newspaper, games) for a year each. I became a personal trainer for about 6 months. Dance teacher for less time. Was a travel consultant for a year which was fun but stressful (management). Retrained in animation and design and loved it but allowed the micromanaging boss and a bad relationship get to me so I travled the world and tried freelance but lacked direction, motivation and without collaboration I dwindled and so did my skills. When I tried to pick up freelance graphic gigs online I would give up because I couldnt remember how to do things and so an ego arose and I havent recovered since and so the past decade I have been trying to figure out what I want to do. In my 20s I just did what I wanted. Now, I am 40 and still feel I can do anything I want.. but cant make that one decision. Teacher and physchologist are appealing to me lately or perhaps UX designer although I know organizing and informtion flow isnt a strength. Elearning developer might be considerable. But I go round and round because what if I make the wrong decision and halfaway through an expensive course I dont like it. I used to be very social like a normal enfp but now I live in the woods with one friend nearby which I am totally fine with. If I can be a remote designer or video editor... or maybe psychologist in the future or art therapist... I could be satisfied. If I can follow through. But living in the woods means I cannot one day be an archaeologist, or work on a boat in greece teaching history, or a painter in france, or a marine biologist. I feel I have gone from all to nothing.
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This article is me through and through. I am an ENFP-A which is becoming a -T. In my 20s I thrived. I initially studied computer science so I could travel with all the money I was earning but never worked in it. I worked in different industries in design (magazine, newspaper, games) for a year each. I became a personal trainer for about 6 months. Dance teacher for less time. Was a travel consultant for a year which was fun but stressful (management). Retrained in animation and design and loved it but allowed the micromanaging boss and a bad relationship get to me so I travled the world and tried freelance but lacked direction, motivation and without collaboration I dwindled and so did my skills. When I tried to pick up freelance graphic gigs online I would give up because I couldnt remember how to do things and so an ego arose and I havent recovered since and so the past decade I have been trying to figure out what I want to do. In my 20s I just did what I wanted. Now, I am 40 and still feel I can do anything I want.. but cant make that one decision. Teacher and physchologist are appealing to me lately or perhaps UX designer although I know organizing and informtion flow isnt a strength. Elearning developer might be considerable. But I go round and round because what if I make the wrong decision and halfaway through an expensive course I dont like it. I used to be very social like a normal enfp but now I live in the woods with one friend nearby which I am totally fine with. If I can be a remote designer or video editor... or maybe psychologist in the future or art therapist... I could be satisfied. If I can follow through. But living in the woods means I cannot one day be an archaeologist, or work on a boat in greece teaching history, or a painter in france, or a marine biologist. I feel I have gone from all to nothing.