I have this personality type which until now I never really had an explanation ma's to why making or keeping friends has been so difficult. To the point now where I only bother with my family. (certain members)
It's hard going through live giving everything of you to everyone else and getting only judgement and jealousy back, greed and expectancy that you will always be there to pull them out of the heap when they make a bad decision based on desires or urges to be one better than their so called friends.
Yet why do I feel totally powerless to my own personality where I will continue to allow people to use me in order that they can have better or reach better position in love or life even above myself.
Its not that I don't care foryself, I loveyself deeply and I believe that our time is here is precious and a gift from God. To other people looking in Iist look miserable and depressed. Yer that's just how I internalise my life,y life happens insidey head and very few if any people will get to experience my life within.
What they don't see is that inside I care incredibly deeply about everything and if I get too caught up in one topic I can be dragged down so many rabbit holes and end up no where. Or no where good anyway.
I had to learn to police every thought which came in to my mind so that I didn't spiral. Now if I start thinking about something I have no control over, I'll take the dog for a walk on the woods.
When they say the weight of the world is on your shoulder. Try being a Scorpio male with this personality type.
Waylander787 (not verified)says...
I have this personality type which until now I never really had an explanation ma's to why making or keeping friends has been so difficult. To the point now where I only bother with my family. (certain members)
It's hard going through live giving everything of you to everyone else and getting only judgement and jealousy back, greed and expectancy that you will always be there to pull them out of the heap when they make a bad decision based on desires or urges to be one better than their so called friends.
Yet why do I feel totally powerless to my own personality where I will continue to allow people to use me in order that they can have better or reach better position in love or life even above myself.
Its not that I don't care foryself, I loveyself deeply and I believe that our time is here is precious and a gift from God. To other people looking in Iist look miserable and depressed. Yer that's just how I internalise my life,y life happens insidey head and very few if any people will get to experience my life within.
What they don't see is that inside I care incredibly deeply about everything and if I get too caught up in one topic I can be dragged down so many rabbit holes and end up no where. Or no where good anyway.
I had to learn to police every thought which came in to my mind so that I didn't spiral. Now if I start thinking about something I have no control over, I'll take the dog for a walk on the woods.
When they say the weight of the world is on your shoulder. Try being a Scorpio male with this personality type.